Happiness!!!

This is the tough issue that has occupied my mind over the last few days. Did you ever wonder what happiness is? What is it that makes you really happy and how long does it last?

When I was about 15 years old I met a guy who was doing civil army in the dorm where I was living. He reminded me of Jesus, at least in his appearance, and sometimes in the things that he was doing or saying. He didn’t watch TV or pay attention to his wardrobe, or what he will eat. It is really weird for today’s western society. He was pretty interested in eastern philosophy and he was doing yoga at home. He fascinated me. He had all the qualities that I appreciate - calm, honest, religious, wise, caring.
I thought he looked very satisfied and happy, so I asked him once if yoga made him happy? He answered that happiness is just momentary; it is not a permanent condition and it is not something that you can buy (yoga courses).

I agree with him even though I would like to be happy more of the time. Last few days I was sad - bothered by thousands of worries and I struggle to find things that can make me happy, help to resolve my problems or forget them.

Looking for happiness is what brings me here in the first place!

Another friend of mine who lived about ten years as a volunteer without earning any wages told me once that you can be happy only if you put God first, caring for others second and your self third. That made me think God is already my priority and I know that I most enjoy helping others. So that gave birth to the idea about the things that I am doing now.

I don’t know where things have gone wrong but I am sure that they will be better again. Tomorrow I am going do some shopping. They said that shopping cheers every girl! And I am also looking forward to this weekend when I will go with other people of my age from church to somewhere in Kent.

Sorry guys if I bring you into depression but I won’t write just about the bright side.